some times, two people find themselves falling for each other more fluidly than expected. and it feels amazing – to be awoken a little bit more each day by your connection with another human being. on a rapid tumble of discoveries and explorations. how many truths lie here?
until, one of these star-crossed lovers realizes they aren’t looking for love. falling was not in the plan. at least not falling for someone else before spending more time with and for oneself. and so, some times, it takes the light of external affirmation to parse out the holes [tiny and gaping] that dwell within.
bear this in mind while you swim and tread in and out of others’ lives. leave a person in better form [mind body soul] and affairs than you find them. if it doesn’t work out, don’t destroy them enough that it hinders them from finding the next phase of what they need elsewhere. build others up, especially the ones who allow you to touch and ultimately shape a piece of their lives.
i’ve been on both sides, and they’re both pretty shitty. but everything about this universe is orbital – perhaps you’ll be in better spaces when you meet again.
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March 10th, 2016 at 10:56 pm
I agree, but…I think that life is all about balance. We are always going to have the rug pulled from underneath us, always. People coming and going unexpectedly, it’s all part of the journey. Eventually, we have to love ourselves, be independent, and a single whole–while being in love with someone else. Someone who should also be independent and a single whole. Learning this won’t always come on the terms we want or expect.
The journey to “spending time and for oneself” is endless and fluid. I don’t think it stops or gets easier. It’s just constant like growing a muscle. Just because you are on this path, doesn’t mean you should deprive yourself of something or someone you desire (as long as it’s healthy of course).
Just a thought.